Today I spent most of my time in bed with a nasty virus that has been going around. It makes it difficult to keep your attitude right when you are not feeling well. However, I can not let that deter me from what is ahead of me and I must keep the right attitude , because it will be necessary.
I asked my two older daughters the other day how they felt about me and the cancer coming back. There answers were wonderful, they have such a great attitude, one of them said well, it's not like this is the first time and you will be fine, they both are happy that I wont need a feeding tube this time because they know what difficulties that brings. One of my daughters did admit to me that she was sorry she did not want to come see me during the last time of treatments because she couldn't stand to see me in such pain. She asked me ,will it be like that again ? I told her that I did not know , but if it is she did not need to feel obligated to come see me while I was taking treatment, that it was OK and that I understood ,and that I knew she loved me. But I reminded them both that I will be making sure they do there chores, etc...they said , yeah great. I think I will get my youngest daughters feelings from her when the time is right. The last time she doted over me so much while I was in the hospital, and I don't know how she feels this time. Anyway....children are surely a blessing from God !!! That's all for today....
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