first day of treatment

well,... i look back over my last post and see that i was not in a very good place. I need to be grateful for what i do have and look toward the future. I was just reflecting on the unfortunate things that have happened to people since my last post , and I am sure they would rather be on my shoes right now, there was that plane crash , and the numerous car bombs, natural disasters,etc... all innocent people hurt or died because of these events, I need to remember that I am still alive after three years and that is a lot more than I originally thought I could hope for , so, we fight on. Today we finally get to go into he hospital for my first treatment, and then counsel with my oncologist afterwards, we will get to see how long it will take and what time of the day we need to be there. We will be driving over 100 miles daily round trip for this treatment. The last time I started radiation treatment I was a very fat and comfortable 210 lbs. the radiation took almost 75 lbs off of me, and since then I have been able ti put weight back on , and now i am at 175. I hope and pray that I wont lose as much weight this time. I have somethings going for me and one is there will be no need for a feeding tube so i should be able to eat all the fattening stuff i want. as long as the radiation doesn't make me sick to my stomach i should be able to limit the amount of weight loss this time. I will be seeing the same radiation team as i saw last year so its going to be a weird kind of reunion. one i wish was under different circumstances. One of the good things about this time around is that we get to see family from California. My father in law is staying with us right now and he is here to help out the first leg of the treatment, then my brothers coming and then after him my mother in law, so, we, i mean my wife will get some much needed help with me not exactly able to handle things as per usual. Just remember to keep a positive attitude and it will work out as God has planned. Well, that's it for now....